I’ll have to admit it was pretty tricky at first. I couldn’t wrap my head around the thought. I was lonely and had even done something randomly with someone. I don’t regret that night, I’m just glad nothing’s awkward between us. But after talking and remembering the past it’s not so surprising that I’d end up where I am. We did make an interesting pair.

We are dying in this heat. Andrei is like a werewolf as it is, he burns hot everyday and i am always cold. But this disgusting heat that we have going on here has us both not wanting to leave the bedroom with the ac blasting

The fight

You know I’ve learned that sometimes to fight about it over and over and to stress and cause more harm and damage just isn’t worth the fight at all. It’s just more work.

I love you
That’s why I can do both
People are so confused and shocked, how can you adore more then one person in your life? Simple, because I can manage my time…

That’s how I make it work
But we make choices in this life and lately I consider the opportunity cost.

You are the only exception

I can’t always be perfect though I do desperately try. It’s hard to imagine that this is the moment I’m trying not to cry. I realized that sometimes I make it all about me. But there’s two of us in this. And I’m completely unfair. So now it hurts, because your not here. And I’m alone right now. Filled with nothing but fear. That I’ll wake up, and this will all disappear. See I know I’m a mess and your not invincible too. But it cant always be about me, it has to sometimes be about you.

I love how I feel when I look at you. Suddenly I am overcome with tingles and warmth. I love you intensely. If we had known so many years ago that we’d be sharing a tent in the wilderness together, pressing our soft lips against each others skin, do you think we would have been different? I’m glad we made mistakes, im pretty fucking thankful for it.

Since when did feeling sick to my stomach become such a common thing?

So friggin tired!

Allergist tomorrow